miércoles, 16 de noviembre de 2011

18

“I told you they were zombies,” said Corporal Anderson, while he walked towards the jeep. Father Lucas followed a few steps behind, and Arthur was strolling after them.
“The place by Alabaster Road is nearly empty, we will need a new gas station soon,” said Father Lucas. “Maybe get an electrical one.”
“Electric ones are shit,” said the Corporal. “And I’m sure electricity will be out soon.”
“Well, the city reactors were built to last with minimal maintenance. I’m sure even if they go out we would be able to get them running again.”
“And what about that place in the desert, where they took the kid?”
Father Lucas spat on the floor in disgust.
“If I don’t see that place in a million years it will be too soon.”
“I was wondering about it the other night, do you think it’s possible that we were spared because we were near to that place near the last days? Like an eye of the storm kind of thing.”
“We were spared because that was the will of the world,” said Father Lucas.
“Bullshit. That may be true, but there must be something more tangible, something simpler. We were both in that bloody bunker, maybe they had some kind of secret shield techno-shit.”
Father Lucas pondered that for a moment. “I don’t think so. Arthur was there too, and he’s as braindead as the rest, bless his soul.”
“Then what the hell was it, Father? Why us out of billions?”
He hadn’t thought about it, but when the Corporal had mentioned it, an idea had started taking shape in his head.
“You know what you and I have in common? We were leaders. We were the men that people look up to. You were a ruler of soldiers, I was a ruler of souls. Arthur here was none. He was, as big as his soul was, a follower, a sheep. But us, we were the herders.”
Corporal Anderson looked interested. He started the jeep while Father Lucas kept talking.
“If that is His will, we need to start again, to create a better civilization, based on His word. That might be why he choose me for his voice. Like he did with Noah, he sent us an ailing to cleanse the world, and prepare it for a new era of praise and enlightenment.”
“Then, we need to find the rest of those that are still capable of thought, His plan must reach to them too.”
“Maybe there’s no other,” replied Father Lucas. The Corporal seemed lost in thought for a moment.
“Is there something you need to tell me?” he asked.
“Yes. I didn’t tell you at first, because the man has some strong opinions, and I thought you wouldn’t like him, but...” he reached for the stereo, and Father Lucas was surprised to see that he turned the radio on. And suddenly, the car filled with a strong but soothing voice:

...orporate greed, zealotry and the way we raped our planet. There’s nothing more to it.
I remember the news of the last days, when everyday seemed crazier than the rest. One day we would cure the illness that had been destroying the world for the last thirty years, the next day we had created a new disease that was even worse. I especially liked that moment, where a corporation decided it was good enough to be a country. That would have been a great deal-breaker, at least if it hadn’t happened two weeks before the end of the world.
So anyway, I was thinking that if I am not the last man on Earth, maybe I will be the one to rebuild the world as it should have been, not as it was. Maybe it’s up to remember the mistake of the pasts so they won’t happen again. I could write a book: the Perry Dawson Bible! It would have all of my answers, and suggestions, and even commandments. “Thou shall not fuck with rock and roll” would most likely be number or two.
And yet, there’s so many wrongs to right... Well, you have to pick one to start, don’t you? So, from now on, The King won’t be Elvis. Buddy Holly was a better singer and a better composer, why shouldn’t he have the title he deserves? So, without further ado, I give you That Will Be The Day, by The King...

The music drowned his voice, and Father Lucas looked at the Corporal.
“Why didn’t you tell me sooner?”
“As I said, he’s not the most settled person. I’ve heard him saying some things to which I know you wouldn’t approve.”
Father Lucas seemed lost in thought for a few seconds.
“That’s good, dialogue breeds honest behaviour. If we are to rule, we need to make sure that we represent all areas of interest. We should find him.”
“Well, I think I know what radio tower he’s using, we should go there.”

***

“I knew him,” said Chris.
“So, who is he?” asked Avril.
“He’s the guy who shot Dianne.”
She looked at the corpse on the floor.
“It can’t be. You said the man in black killed him.”
“And he killed Dianne,” said Chris. He now understood what Avril had meant before. There was something extremely wrong with dead people walking.
“Do you think this is general?” asked Robin. “Like, crazy Dawn of the Dead stuff, with zombie Hitler and zombie Churchill going at it again?”
Chris couldn’t bother looking for an answer. He was pondering what they would do, how they would protect the complex from further stuff like what had just happened, and most of all, how he was going to convince the referendum that Dianne should stay. It would have been so easy if this hadn’t happened. He looked at the second corpse. This man had called himself Ralph and was really good at planting. He claimed to be an accountant, but becoming an undreamer had impaired his abilities to the points where he needed to be told to move when looking at an incoming reaper truck.
“He shoot him twice...” he said, it wasn’t a question. Avril and Robin exchanged a quick glance.
“He did,” she said.
“That’s not good, that shows iniciative, planning. I’ve failed so let me try again... That’s not usual undreamer behaviour.”
“Well,” said Avril. “You know they hate loud noises, and when he first shoot him, the undreamer started howling.”
“I guess it could happen.”
His mind wondered once more to the referendum. He needed Dianne to stay, he was sure of it, but how would he convince everyone?

***

When Chris had left, Robin turned to Avril.
“Why did you lie to him?”
“I don’t trust him.”
“I thought you two were close, like really close friends.”
She grimaced.
“I met him right before the event. I don’t know who he is around Dianne.”
Robin scratched his head. He started picking up the pieces of Tops scattered around the floor. The robot had wanted him to see something important, and he didn’t think it was about the shooter. He needed to rebuild the robot.
“You know,” said Avril. Robin realized he had forgotten that people usually like to explain their actions in heavy detail. Although the short conversation had been enough for him, it was clearly not enough for her. He turned and tried to avoid looking pissed off at not being able to finish his task.
“You know, I think she is going to change him. When she was not around, Chris used to be about other people, he’s got a lot of generosity. But when she’s around, she kind of sucks him into a hole. I’m fearing that his whole attitude will change from now on.”
He nodded, she carried on.
“And I want to know where she came from. I saw her die, I saw her buried. This is like something from a fucked up zombie movie or something...”
“Well, our whole situation is bonkers, m’lady,” said Robin, in an attempt to calm her. “If this guy was dead too, maybe all dead people are coming back.”
“That’s just...” she said, but trailed off.
“I mean, I might even go looking for my nanny, she gave me a fiver every Sunday, might be she still does.”
Avril just there, looking at him, but didn’t give an answer. He took this as the cue that the whole conversation was over, and he returned to picking pieces of Tops. When he turned back, she had gone.

***

The man hadn’t even looked back once. Carrie had been following him for the last forty eight hours, as he had gone from house to house, killing everyone in it, and then leaving to find the next. She couldn’t understand why she was following him, except that he was different. He was not feral and primitive, like the zombies were, but he seemed to have a plan, and her curiosity demanded she found out what it was.
She walked into the house from which he had come out, and searched for the clues she knew would be there. The corpse was mostly clean, which usually meant he was a zombie. There were no fight signs, so the man would have just walked in, found the evidence, and left. She saw an open laptop, and moving her fingers over the trackpad made the screen come to life. There was an e-mail open, dated on the 10th of December.

Dear Alice, we’ve already moved into the compound, I don’t know how much I can say, but since I’m pretty sure we’re being screened, I’ll just let them edit anything that’s confidential. After all, I never signed an NDA and I’m sure my marriage license didn’t have one.
This place is a dump. The complex is amazing, don’t get me wrong, but there’s nothing out there in the sun. Oh, they’ve showed us some plans, and they say a lot of pretty things about the future, but right now our choices are rot in a nice bunker or burn in the desert sand without even an umbrella, or a seat.
The kids are restless. They like the place alright, and little Elliot loves the gaming room, but this is not a good environment for them. This is like a futuristic office turned war room. Amanda asked me last night if we are prisoners, and my heart just broke. I’ve been dealing with this situation for too long. General Dynamics changed him, I know it.
I am once again considering divorce, Alice. I just don’t know how to bring it up. I will probably do it once this whole crazy thing with the 12th of December goes away.
I miss you.

The sender was Mia Vanenkoff, and she wondered if it would be the same person that she kept seeing in the photos that she found. She opened an new tab in the web browser she was using, and opened Facebook. It was not logged in, but it seemed like Alice had kept her passwords saved, and she could access her page. She looked for Mia, and started browsing through her photos. She immediately recognized her as the woman that the man in the suit seemed to be looking for, however, she still didn’t know his relationship to her. She was not in any photos, and she couldn’t see anyone like him in her friend list. She frowned, but went back to Mia’s personal details. She saw that she was married, but it didn’t seem like the name of her husband was there. She wondered about the divorce she had heard about.
Mia spoke about the complex, and she wondered if it would be the infamous General Dynamics complex that had been on the news the day before everything went to hell. Suddenly, she realized that if the place was still up, it was likely that it was well stocked and she could find supplies and maybe even a way to search for more non-zombies. And besides, it seemed safer than following a killer.

***

“I wonder why all this stuff still works,” said Corporal Anderson, as Father Lucas used Google Maps to find the radio tower.
“Old world paranoia. Most of the web companies had so many redundant systems that not even a cataclysm could bring them down.” he answered.
“Oomph,” grunted the Corporal. He looked at Arthur, who was looking at the city lights. They were standing at a high perched lookout, that allowed them to see the whole skyline. There were a few buildings that looked disheveled, but most of them were actually standing. It made him uneasy, he had expected an old style cataclysm, but this was eerie. It was as if everything would continue, regardless if there was any civilization or not.
The kid sat staring at the distance, Corporal Anderson hadn’t want to take Arthur with them, but Father Lucas had insisted. He could understand it, though. It had been Arthur who took care of him when he was hurt during the attack, but when the 12th of December had come, he had suffered the same fate as most of the people around them. Tonight he seemed more active, but some other times he was nothing more than a puppet. Father Lucas seemed to like it, and gave him constant orders, but the kid still unnerved him.
Suddenly, Arthur turned, and looked straight into the Corporal eyes. He felt uncomfortable, as the kid hold his gaze, unmoving, unblinking and without any emotion.
Father Lucas spoke, and broke the enchantment.
“Unless he’s managed to change the signals, he should be transmitting from Crowley Avenue. We could get there in twenty minutes if we cut through Abbinson. It’s a no entry road, but I don’t think we would get any cop complaining.”
“OK,” said Corporal Anderson, “let’s go.”
“Arthur, in the car!” screamed Father Lucas. The kid walked around the cliff and stood for a second next to the Corporal, he looked once more at him, and then got in the car.

***

Tops was easy to put back together. Although the shot had destroyed most of it’s top half of the body, all his processing and storage were kept in his lower part. He used some pieces from the robot that had crashed against Dianne’s statue and had the little machine running again in no time. He knew that Chris would be going crazy about the dead chick, and that Avril would be going crazy about Chris. He was glad he had his machines to go back to. It was in time like this when he most regretted his decision to come and live in the complex. Back at his old place things hadn’t been so complicated.
He used to be a Seeker, but he had never told anyone. Long before the event, he had liked the idea of the Singularity: a point in human evolution in which technology and specially Artificial Intelligences grew complex to the point were they became so powerful that they changed the world in new and unpredictable ways. After all, the world needed some changing. Then, three months before that priest had gone crazy on TV, he had started emailing a writer about the concept of the Eschaton, which sounded oddly similar to the Singularity to him. During those emails, the writer had always emphasized that the time was near, but Robin had been much more skeptical about it. You cannot predict change, that’s why it always seems so distant, had written the Seeker. Robin had started taking some of the mannerisms of these people. He went to some meetings. They had been eerily similar to a cult, but it always worried him the fact that they weren’t. Most of them used to live perfectly ordinary lives, until the point were they put a cardboard sing over their head, and went out to let people know that the end was nigh. Then, when the priest in TV started shooting lightning out of his ass, he had gotten another email: Told you it was near. At the time, he hadn’t believed that anything would happened. He smiled at how foolish he had been.
Most of those Seekers had been close to the complex when the attack happened, and some had even been killed. He shivered at the thought of seeing them again. After the attack, and even though everyone thought there would be a new one, they just stood there, waiting, hoping to be the firsts to see the change.
Most people had heard the priest say that if Chris Barnett didn’t die, the world would end. The Seekers had heard that if he lived, the world would change. They wanted to see it, to feel it as soon as they could. They needed change, as he had, too.
Instead, they had became braindead. He had been spared by some mysterious reason, maybe even by chance, and yet, for a while he had thought they were the lucky ones. And then, one day, he had decided to see where it had all started, and found a small society of men and women trying to do their best to make the zombies he had been seeing lead useful lives, even educate them.
He had stayed, and had soon become the local expert in electronics and robots. He had had a few General Dynamics robots before, which he had tweaked and turned until they had been mostly unrecognizable, however the technology in the complex was at least five years what they had been releasing to the market. He understood why they had seceded, they had the potential to become a leading force in technology.
And time had passed, as it always does, and he had started trusting these people, as he had never trusted others. He knew it had to be the friendship that comes with hardship. Life was hard, after all, even if his skills with the robot meant that they had it easier with agricultural and technical jobs. People here appreciated him all the most because of it.
But it also meant that he now had a responsibility towards these people. The robots had been tweaked to the point that no one but him would be able to fix them if something happened to them. Maybe he needed an apprentice, and once he was trained, he could leave once more and become free once more.
He flipped the switch that activated Tops, and after a couple of seconds the robot came to life and started running. It realized that the scenery had changed and turned around in confusion. He focused its cam on Robin, who felt interrogated and uncomfortable.
“A crazy wanker shot you, I’ve reassembled you using a few bits and bobs, you might want to try moving around a bit to see that nothing falls down.
The robot took his advice and ran in circles a couple of times. Suddenly he remembered something important, and an exclamation mark appeared on his display and it started running to the door.
Robin sighed and started following it.

domingo, 13 de noviembre de 2011

Halfway there

So, that's 25310 words down, 24690 to go. Sorry for the formatting in this last one, feel free to check it here:

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17

Book 2.
Chris Barnett must change
or
The pursuit of meaning.

Act 3:
Eschaton

Two years had passed. Chris had managed to get a group of people together, but he was finding it exhausting to deal with them. Men and women had lost their ability to dream, or to think about the future, and he needed to remind them constantly of what needed to be done, and who needed to do everything.
They were submissive, like mindless drones they would put themselves to any task he asked of them, until they forgot or something else caught their attention. Dianne had been with him since they left the General Dynamics complex, the day after the end of the world. They had woken together, with their hands held, and they had walked into a world of madness. They spent the first weeks finding out just what had happened, and wondering if they would be able to fix it. Most people could lead normal lives, even if they had lost their ability to plan. Their basic instincts were enough for them to survive. They would eat, wash and sleep, and look for food when they couldn’t find it. Some people turned feral, others turned inactive, and some even died of hunger sitting on their beds, being incapable of thinking what they should do next.
And yet, a handful of people were unaffected, including Chris and Avril.
During the first month they traveled around the country, trying to gauge the spread of the phenomenon. Once they had determined it was global, they returned to the desert, and the General Dynamics bunker. There was no safer place for them, they knew.
The robots had been waiting, like the humans they had seen, for someone to give them commands. The base had been abandoned by all the suits. They were alone when they arrived, and they used the robot to made the place habitable.
While they had been away, the robots had created a statue of Dianne. Neither of them knew the reason, but even though it scared Avril, Chris saw it as a sign.
After a couple of months, the place was running again, and they managed to establish a small community and open it to whoever wanted to stay with them. Most menial tasks were conducted by the robots, but there was still work around to keep everyone busy. For those that had been affected and couldn’t make decisions, there was a strong hierarchy of needs and they were always people trying to educate them. During the last two years, some of the less responsive of the men had started reacting better, which gave them all hope that the condition they had called the undream might be reversible.
However, there was too much work for the twenty-something people that could still plan in the complex. Shifts needed to be overseen, people needed training and guidance for things as simple as using bathrooms, without surveillance, things quickly spiralled into chaos. Fights were constant, as the undreamers moved only based on basic needs. However, even though it was hard work, and he ended his days more tired than he had never been, Chris felt happy with what the were building.
One of the first days, he had spoken about it with Avril.
“I am tired, Chris,” she had said. “Tired of treating grown men as feral kids, as animals.”
“They’re not animals,” he had answered. “Not animals, not kids, not slaves, not robots... They’re people who are learning, step by step, and we just need to keep them safe until they can do it by themselves.”
“They’re not our responsibility, dammit.”
“Yet maybe they are. I was unable to die, and it may be that I am the reason why they are like this.”
She had dropped her head to her knees.
“If I didn’t know you better, I would say that you seem happy about this, Chris.”
And that had hurt, but days followed each other, and they grown used to each other’s company, and to organizing the people around them. Chris found he had more patience that he had expected, and Avril found that she was better at being strict, when she needed to. As the months passed, they found that they were better at working together. There was a certain synergy between them, and those amongst them that weren’t undreamers quickly took to listening to them. They became the leaders of the complex in a natural way, without ever talking about it, but simply by making the right decisions. The people who worked with them looked up to them for council and guidance. They had reached a balance, and they were slowly building a better world for everyone involved.
And then, Dianne appeared again.

***
Robin closed the door to the robot controls, and fired it up. It leaped up into the air, hovering, and he smiled, sure that he had fixed it this time. However, it soon started bobbing left and right, and suddenly it fired his back rockets, and flew straight into the statue of the dead girl. He saw the pieces flying everywhere and cursed loudly. If there was something they didn’t need was one robot less. He nudged the working robot that was by his side, the one he called Tops.
“Tops, fetch the pieces,” he said. “Rendezvous here in ten minutes.”
The small drone darted, on wheels built for much better roads, stabilizing itself every few seconds, to avoid falling. Robin took out one of his hand rolled cigarettes and tried to light it with his lighter, that had been refusing to work for the last two weeks. He cursed again, and looked at how tops was doing.Only then he saw the undreamer that had been standing beside the statue for heavens know how long.
“Oi, you, move!” he shouted. If one of the idiots got killed by his drones in an accident, he would be in trouble.However, the undreamer didn’t move and instead looked at him, with a look of concern.
“Move!” he shouted again, moving his hands without any general direction, he just wanted her to get away from his area. “Allez-y! Vamonos!” he added, wondering why the undreamer wouldn’t understand him. When it became clear that she wouldn’t move, he trotted up to her. He was wearing a long sari that left a mark over the sand. “Out, get away, scram, this is not a secure area, dammit! Things exploding badda-bimm badda-bum.” He pulled up to her and got as close as her stench allowed. “Now you don’t even understand me? No habla eenglesee?”
The undreamer looked at him, confused but staring.
“Is that me?” she asked finally, pointing at the statue. The question took Robin by surprise.
“What? No! Of course not, that’s a statue of the boss’ old girlfriend, she got a bad case of scrambled noggin’,” he put his fingers to his temples and made a shooting gesture. “Bloomy-balooney-ballity, your brain’s now graffiti!”
“The woman hid her face in her hands, scared and horrified at his gesture. Robin immediately regretted.
“No, no, no, no, don’t cry, don’t cry, it was a joke ha ha ha!” he said while trying to comfort her, but without daring to touch her.
“It hurt,” she said. Robin noticed then that she was clutching the back of her head, as if there had been a wound there, but he couldn’t see any.
Rendezvous, achieved!” screamed a modulated voice at his back. He turned his head and saw Tops doing a small victory dance.
“Not now, Tops!” he screamed, feeling more nervous by the moment. Things were great when there weren’t any undreamers or in fact any humans around. He started wondering if he could take a few robots and leave, when the girl suddenly grabbed his shirt and pulled him down.
“It hurt! The hole in the head, it hurt!” she screamed, with tears running down her cheeks. Only then did Robin see the similarity. He looked up and saw the statue, of the smiling, pretty face, and then looked down at the same face, dirty and crying, and realized that she had been right. The statue was her.

***

Father Lucas aimed, and shot. The undreamer fell, his arm blown off, screaming and shouting. Another shot silenced him.
“Ah, I almost got it” he said with a hint of frustration. Corporal Anderson took the rifle, and shoot the second undreamer, who fell to the ground without a sound.
“The trick is to wait for the shot, you will see it in the end,” said Corporal Anderson.
“You know,” he said after a few minutes, “I always thought that the zombie apocalypse would be more exciting. This just looks like someone wrote a survival horror movie for old people with heart problems.”
“Look at them,” said Father Lucas. “They behave like animals.” They had installed a camp light in a plaza and the undreamers had been flocking there since then. They coveted the heat and the light, so they moved towards it like moths to a flame. Father Lucas tried another shot, but only got one in the knee. The woman fell to the ground, screaming in pain. Some of those that passed by her side turned to look at her, but stayed still, without knowing what to do.
“They are worse than animals, actually. Animals have drives, instincts, even empathy. These creatures are nothing but empty husks.”
Arthur came up to them, with a bottle in each hand, and gave them to Corporal Anderson. He didn’t even look at the boy, focusing instead on the screaming woman.
“Good, now go and sit over there, and don’t make a sound.”
Arthur moved away, his eyes not blinking, and his head eerily still. He sat on the floor, some way away from the two men, and looked into the wall.
Father Lucas looked through the scope, looking at how the screaming woman was now crawling, trying to reach the light.
“Click,” he said, but never shot, watching her die slowly.

***

“I don’t like it, Chris.”
“Look, is it so hard to believe that something magical has happened? After all, take a look at what our lives have become.”
Avril shivered. “This is different,” she said. “Unnatural, there has to be something really bad happening if...” her voice trailed off, worried that he would be hurt if she spoke. And yet he kept on pushing.
“If what, Avril?”
“If the dead are coming back. That’s bad, Chris, really bad.”

***

Alice started panting as soon as he took off the gag. He looked at him, dressed in perfect black, and tried to make out the outline of his eyes behind the sunglasses, but couldn’t.
“Please,” she was able to whimper through her sobbing. “Please, don’t do this...”
The man stood up. His voice sounded broken and sullen, as if he was talking from the bottom of a cliff after falling from it.
“Don’t do what, Alice? What are you afraid of?” he was walking through the room while he talked, as if he was looking for something.
“Don’t hurt me, please, please...” she was moving her hands to release the knots that were binding her, but she was only managing to get rope burns on her wrists. The man seemed distracted, maybe if she could release her feet and hands, maybe...
And then, the man finally stopped moving. He stood for a while in front of the shelves were she kept the photo albums, with his back to her. His shoulders were broad and his hands big, but if she could remove the rope, perhaps he could distract him long enough to flee. While she was struggling, his hand suddenly shot and he grabbed one of the tenths of albums she had. He leafed through it quickly, as if he had known what he was looking for, and when he got it he took it out.
He returned to her, and she tried frantically to move away. Her movements only served to tighten the knots even further. He put the photo in front of her. Through the tears, she saw herself, a much younger version, in front of the Eiffel Tower in Paris. With her, hand over shoulder, was...
“Do you know this woman?” asked the man. She only managed a sob, so he asked again.
“Do you know this woman?”
“Her... Her name was Mia, we were friend in high school...”
The man face brightened. He gave her a smile, the first she had seen since the end of the world, and for a moment, she saw a glimmer of hope.
“Ah, see, much better, that’s all I wanted to know.”
She started crying again, relieved. Then the man yanked her hair back roughly. She saw the edge of the blade, but didn’t quite understand it until she felt the cold steel against her throat. She could only manage a few bubbling sounds, and then everything faded to black.

***

“You were the first one to see her, Robin. What do you think about her?” Avril said. She was sprawled over the sit and it was easy to see she was nervous and upset. Robin didn’t want to be in the same as her, and he definitely didn’t want to be alone with her. However, he knew she needed the support. Chris had gone to meet the girl, whoever she was, and it was up to him to comfort the reporter. He wasn’t good at that, he kept hoping people had cogs.
“I don’t know, m’lady... She looked different to other stup... to other undreamers. But I got no bad vibes, just...” he trailed off, unable to explain what he had felt.
“Just?” asked Avril.
“It’s hard to say, y’know? I got this sort of just not right feeling about her.”
“Big duh, she’s a fucking corpse.”
“But, not like that, y’know what I mean?”
“I saw her face, Robin. She had a hole in it the size of my fist.”
“Maybe she’s like a clone, or a robot, or a roboclone...”
She sighed, with a feeling of despair.
“I don’t know, Robin, you’re the expert in that stuff, is she?”
He considered lying, but thought better about it.
“No, she the real thing, whatever that is... But it’s just not right.”
“Yes, you said already.”
“It’s like, you know when someone takes the whole operating system of your cyberbrain and replaces with another, but forgets to tweak some knobs to how they were before?”
Avril rolled her eyes.
“No, I don’t.”
“You can feel it. The thing’s functional, but off. Like a Harley with a Vespa’s motor,” he said, suddenly finding a metaphor that she would understand. Instead, she sunk deeper into her chair.
“Great, that’s how I’ve felt my whole life,” she said.

***

Chris hadn’t realized how nervous he was until he got the door. He straightened his tee shirt and run his hands through his hair, combing it. He swallowed before reaching for the door handle, however. He had to be prepared to the possibility that she wouldn’t recognize him. They had been watching her for a while through the cameras, and he was now sure that she was an undreamer. Robin had driven her to this room for her to calm down, and she had sat down and hadn’t moved at all. He didn’t know how she would react, what she would do or even if she would remember anything. He opened the door slowly, and found her looking straight to where he was standing.
“Hi,” he said, shyly.
“Hi,” she answered, with no expression on her face.
He stood beside the door, not moving. She didn’t say a word, but kept looking at him. He couldn’t take his eyes off of her. Was that a hint of smile he saw? Did she recognize him? Was she really her?
“Do you know who you are?” he finally asked. She nodded.
“It was cloudy before, but I remembered things.”
“What’s your name?”
“Dianne Luntz,” she replied. He let a sigh of relief out.
“Do you know who I am?” she nodded again, smiling this time. Chris remembered all his work with undreamers, and knew he had to be more specific.
“Who am I?” he asked.
“You’re Chris, my Chris,” she said.

***

He was glad to leave the room, and was even more happy when Tops rolled to his side. A small exclamation sign appeared in the display it had on the top half of its body, which was his way to tell Robin that it wanted him to follow. He started walking behind the robot, pondering what it was that creeped him out so much about the whole situation. Sure, there was the dead girl returning to life, but as long as she was here, everything will stay controlled. Chris had called for a referendum later that afternoon, after he had talked to the girl, and found out if she was a threat or not.
Tops was running through the corridors faster than he could follow. The robot stopped every few yards and returned to him, his exclamation point flashing again, it was obvious that the little guy was excited about something.
He turned a corner, and suddenly there was a loud bang. He covered his face in an instinctive movement, and saw pieces of Tops rolling around the floor. He ducked to the left and threw himself into the first room he saw, which had nothing on it. He closed the door, and peered around frantically, looking for a way to secure himself. He heard another bang, and a loud scream, and suddenly the whole building was filled with the sounds of an alarm bell. He screamed to the projector, keeping his back to the wall.
“Computer! Dial Avril!”
Her face appeared over the white wall immediately.
“Robin, are you OK? What happened!” the scream had never stopped, a loud desperate cry of pain, but now there was a second one. This one however, froze the blood in his veins. It was not pain, it was something else.
“I’m OK! The shots came from hall A3, run security cams on the area!”
She moved her hands like a flash, and over her face there appeared three different cam feeds of the hall. They could see a man there, though neither of them could identify him. He had a rifle in his hand and had his head raised.
“The bastard’s howling!” cried Robin.
“Fuck,” said Avril. “Do we have the drones?”
“One crashed. The other two are outside, I can’t command them from here.”
There was a second person in the hall. They saw it was one of the undreamers, who had been shot. He was the one crying in pain, but wouldn’t move at all. Suddenly, Avril’s face lighted up.
“We might have a chance, if he’s an undreamer,” she said.
Robin would have tried anything. After all, he was only a wall away from the lunatic.
“We don’t know if this will work, we’ve been trying it out, Chris and I.” She made some new gestures and suddenly the alarm died off, only Robin realized he could still hear it faintly. He also saw the light dimming on the hall.
“What are you doing?”
“Undees hate sound and love light. They move away from the first and to the second, so I’m modulating the sound and light to control where he goes. And it looks like it’s working.”
And it was. The man had started walking through the hall with a slow, deliberate stroll. Robin saw that the wounded man had started moving too, crawling slowly.
“I’ll walk him past your door,” she said, and Robin could see in the screens that it was happening. He suddenly felt his presence as something tangible, he only needed to open the door and it would be over.
“Wait, let me...” said Avril. Suddenly the room was filled with noise again. They saw the man with the rifle covering his ears with his hands, and dropping the gun. As it fell, it let out a shot that was got lost in the hallway. Robin had ducked and was now sitting on the floor.
“Dammitdammitdammit,” he said.
“Sorry,” said Avril, and promptly fixed the lights and sound so the man was walking past the door, leaving the rifle behind.
“Great,” she said. “Now’s our chance, get the rifle, he will be powerless then.”
Robin agreed, however he didn’t see it as clearly as she did. He looked at the screens, to make sure that the man was well past his door. He opened it and saw the rifle lying on the floor. He immediately jumped to grab it. He hold it firmly, even though it was the first time he was ever armed, and he didn’t like at all. He pointed at the man trying to stay calm, but he couldn’t stabilize his hands.
And then, the man slowly turned. Robin saw his grin, maniacal and with to many teeth, and realized he needed to shoot. His aim wasn’t ready at all, however.
“Stop!” he screamed.
The man offered no indication that he had understood and instead started to walk towards Robin.
“Trust me, I’ll shoot you!”
However, he couldn’t. Step by step, the man walked up to him, and raised his hands searching for Robin’s throat. He tried swinging the rifle to hit the man, but the chord got tangled and he lost it. It fell to the floor with a long clang, while the strange man’s hand were on his shoulders.
He tried hitting, but the man was much more athletic and better trained. He dodged Robin’s movements easily, and tripped him to the floor with little effort. Robin could feel how his lungs were running dry, as he man hold his thumbs to his neck. He was using so much force that Robin felt as if his neck would break before he choked.
And then, he heard a loud bang and saw a flash of light. The pressure on his neck vanished, and he felt something wet and hot covering him. When he opened his eyes, the man had dropped to the side, his head now nothing but a series of meat and blood stripes. Avril stood a few yards away, with the rifle he had lost, panting heavily. Robin didn’t dare to move for a few minutes.
And then they realized that the wounded undreamer was still howling in pain.

viernes, 11 de noviembre de 2011

16

***

When she found Chris, he was holding the body of Dianne. It took a few seconds for Avril to realize just how bad it was, but when she saw the amount of blood, she knew it was bad. When she saw her face, she had to look away immediately, but he tried to get close to Chris. He wasn’t moving, he wasn’t even trying, he was just looking to the closed door with his eyes completely open. They looked like they were going to jump out of his face. She knelt beside him, but he didn’t move.
“Go away,” he said. “Don’t touch me, don’t touch her.”
She hesitated, but moved away. He had a feral look in his eyes, a rage so profound that she couldn’t even begin to understand it. She walked down the stairs slowly, looking back every few minutes, to watch him, still as a statue.
The rest of the evening passed by in a blur. The people in the bunker were silent, strangers with nothing to say to her, and the men and women in black were not helpful at all. It took a couple of hours until they let them go back to their rooms. She saw Chris walking with the aid of two black dressed men, one of them the one from the helicopter.
When she walked up the stairs, she saw they had been cleaned. The walls of the hallway were being repaired as she returned to her room, and she saw several moving gadgets and robots, cleaning everything and leaving no trace of what had happened.
When she reached her room, she turned on the TV on instinct, but she couldn’t tune into the news channel. There were several sitcoms, comedy channels and movies being broadcast, but no word on the events of the day, or what had happened.
She couldn’t deal with it anyway, so she took the longest bath she had taken until then, and drunk until she feel asleep.

***

Arthur removed the bandages slowly, and washed his hands afterwards. Father Lucas was twitching in his sleep, and all his sudden movements meant that his wounds were closing badly. He wondered if he should ask for him to be sedated again, but they had told him that he was already under some of the strongest in the market.
He wiped the blood, and applied the clean bandages, making sure to be extremely careful to avoid any further injuries. He saw his mouth moving, and leaned close to try to make out the words.
“... need to kill him … no time … must do it …”
He frowned. The doctors had said that he would spend at least two weeks in recovery. With four days to go until the 12th, Arthur only hoped that he wouldn’t wake up until everything was over.
If it was really the end of the world, let someone else deal with it.

***

She had no idea what time it was or much she had slept when she woke up, but Avril immediately turned to the TV. As soon as she realized that, just like last time, all news channels were being censored, her mind became clearer through the hangover induced migraine.
“Chat, asshole, now.”
The Man In Black replied almost immediately. He was sitting on a different chair to the one he usually used, but his smug face hadn’t changed.
“How may I help you, Ms. Smith?”
“You’re censoring the news. What has happened?”
“We are not censoring, we are screening.”
“You are censoring.”
“I assure you, Ms. Smith, that we are doing our best to create a transparent society. As soon as our rules and regulations are in place, and as soon as the UN backs us, there will be no form of censorship or any mediatic control.”
“But there is at the moment, and I can’t watch the news.”
“As I said, we’re screening. Trying to determine what caused this attack, and avoid further incidents.”
She wanted to scream. She could mention twenty different reasons why someone would have performed this attack, but she needed a clear head.
“OK, so what’s the news?”
“We were attacked by hostiles trying to kill Mr. Barnett. It seems it was an independent force, going against direct orders, and they have already submitted an apology. This doesn’t hide the fact that we’ve had our first death of a supporter in our soil.”
“So, she was the only one to die?”
“The only one of our supporters. I believe the attackers weren’t as lucky.”
She frowned, he continued. “This is going to be presented as an act of terrorism to avoid further diplomatic repercussions. We are negotiating the extradition of the main leaders of the attack, so they can be judged by us.”
“And that is going to work?”
“We hope so.”
She turned off the screen. She lied on her bed, clutching her head and her stomach, and fell asleep once more. She could swear she was hearing soothing music, somewhere far away.

***

“The reporter is becoming suspicious,” said the man in black.
“That was to be expected, it’s in her job description.” The CEO was standing over a pile of rubble, overseeing the reconstruction process. The tanks had been abandoned and would probably rust under the rain soon. The fence was being repaired, and most of the Seekers had been repelled. Many of them were asking for citizenship, and they would deal with them when the time was right.
“My wife is too,” said the man in black. The CEO finally turned to look at him.
“Does she want to leave?”
“I’m not sure, she’s not talking to me.”
“Then how do you know she’s suspicious?”
“She emailed her mother. She said I have changed in the last three years.”
“We all have,” said the CEO. Since the first event, most of us in General Dynamics have been... affected.”
“It never happened to you, sir.”
The CEO smiled.
“That’s right, I was the lucky one, wasn’t I?”
The man in black said nothing, but only smiled.
“The reporter will play her part,” said the CEO. “And the second event will bring hope and glory to all of us.” He turned to a couple of the construction robots. “The woman who died, find her name and create a statue of her. She is going to be the new world’s first martyr.”
The man in black walked behind, saying nothing.

***

He wouldn’t answer the door. He didn’t leave the room when they offered her a memorial. He stayed in his room, still in shock. She would knock every day a couple of times, but he never replied. She couldn’t even begin to think about his anguish or pain, but it frustrated her again to be left out.
And then, the day came. She kept calling but his phone was disconnected, she had even begged the Man In Black to let her see him, she knocked and knocked to no avail.
And when she had lost all hope and was simply waiting for the end of the world, it was he who knocked on her door.
Avril was shocked to see Chris standing there when she opened the door. He looked dirty and tired, and stunk of alcohol.
“I tried to do it, but couldn’t,” he said. Avril then noted the marks on one of his wrists. It had been an uneven cut but would heal. It let only a trickle of blood fall through his hand and onto the floor. She fought the nausea, and the hate she felt, and guided him into the room. He walked straight towards the bed, and sat, dripping blood into the pristine white floor. He looked straight down.
“I need you to do it,” he said, not looking up.
“No.” She felt her stomach turn. There was no way he could ask that of her. They didn’t even know themselves that much.
“What if it’s true?”, he said finally looking up. “What if we wake up tomorrow and see this world in ruins?”
“I heard something different.”
“I don’t care about what you heard, I care about the possibility of everybody dying, and that being on my conscience.”
“There it goes, that’s just a possibility. If I did it, I would most definitely not be able to live with myself, even if the sun came up tomorrow.”
“And what if it happens?” he asked with tears in his eyes.
“Then, I will learn how to live myself. If I’m even alive. But I really don’t think that the world is going to end. The people here seem to be quite certain of it.”
“What if they’re wrong? Or even worse, what if that was their plan all along? That damn guy that was with you in the helicopter doesn’t even seem human.”
“They are protecting us, at least.”
“I’m not sure of that...” Chris raised his hands to his head, messing his hair with blood. Avril stood up and tapped the button for the first aid kit. She got the bandages and sat beside him in the bed. She hold his arm, and he didn’t resist. “Here, let me,” she said, and started dressing his wound.
“I wish the killer had got me instead of her.”
She couldn’t give an answer to that, so she concentrated on the wound. When it was done, he moved his fingers, slowly, grimacing.
“I saw the killer’s face. He was savage, fierce, and I could see hate and lust in his eyes. There were so many things in there that I was sure I was going to die, and I didn’t even care.” She listened carefully as he carried on. “And then, the guy in the suit came from behind him and killed him, and he just smiled, with that dead smile of his. Yes, the killer was going to kill me, but he was happy about it, he showed some emotion. The other guy simply stood there, like it was his duty to take a life. What kind of monster do you have to be to kill someone and not even care? For fuck sake, we don’t even know his name yet.”
Avril nodded. They stood for a while without saying a word, just listening to the silence. It was him who spoke again after a while.
“I don’t want to wake up tomorrow and see that something bad has happened. I don’t think I could handle it.”
“It’s not your fault.”
“And yet, somehow it is.”
She sat back. She didn’t like where this was going.
“I need you to do it, Avril.”
“I can’t...”
“Even if it’s not my fault, if I can somehow stop it I need to do it, but I can’t,” he raised his bandaged hand to show it. She shivered. There was a pleading in his eyes, and she suddenly felt scared. Maybe she was wrong, or maybe she had heard things wrongly. And if she was wrong and he needed to die...
“I know it’s too much to ask of you, I know be barely know each other, but I have no one else. I’ve been alone my whole life, even when I wasn’t, and yet I can’t bear the thought of dying alone.”
She took him in her arms. She had started crying, and couldn’t bear to look at him.
“I’ll do it,” she said softly. He raised his arms then and hugged her.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered.
She moved away. She walked to the wall and asked for whisky, hoping it would give her strength.
“I have one condition, though, I want you to be asleep when I do it. I don’t think I could bare anything else.”
He smiled with sadness. “I’m going to need some of that whisky to be able to sleep.”
And so they drunk in silence. They tried to speak a couple of times, but it never worked. They choked on words and tears. She watched him downing glass after glass, until he crawled into a fetal position. She moved to him, and cradled his head on her lap. She run her fingers through his hair, that was crusty and dirty with blood. She needed to be ready for it, and then, in a swift movement, he grabbed her trousers and started crying into her legs.
“I can’t... I don’t want to die...”
And right then she knew that no matter what, she wasn’t going to be able to do it.

Epilogue 1:

Like the poem said, it was never a bang.
Arthur woke up realizing that something was wrong. The clock said it was midnight, but he didn’t feel the need to sleep anymore. He walked to the window, listening to the sounds coming from outside, and saw two cars crashed in the middle of the street. The drivers had left the cars, and were walking slowly along the street, not speaking a word. He saw lights turning on, and lights turning off, but something was off somehow. He had a deep feeling of loss, but couldn’t understand what it was. He sat on the bed, looking towards the window.
Far away, the seekers on the desert were walking, each of them back to his own home, all of them wondering what they had lost and why they didn’t feel the need to sleep.
And thus, step by step, and day after day, the world ended.